My Timed Entry

Everyday isn't bad. Some days are really good and I feel like I am happy and in control. Then I have some days where I don't feel in control of my emotions and worse, my reactions. With my significant other he suggests it has to do with resentments and unresolved issues I have inside my own head from growing up. This may be true and I don't even realize it fully. I am getting better at knowing I am upset and what triggered it- an idea of what triggered it. I want to get better and to be able to figure out my emotions more and not be so dependent on another person for happiness and love. I was told today that I sometimes love too much; this baffled me. How can loving someone too much be so bad? I think to myself, "There are worse things in the world. You could have no love. What is so bad about being loved a lot?" But the thing is, maybe he is right. Maybe I need to just love my own damn self and be in control of how I feel solely based on what I BELIEVE and WHAT I WANT. I am truly not sure, as I am just trying to figure this out as I go. I think writing my thoughts could be of use. I want to be happier and I want to feel more confident in life. I don't want to be an emotional sensitive wreck. I want to be a better me.