amusement park? more like unamusement park? MENTAL BREAKDOWN :I

This is basically my period ranting so deal with my dramatic self along with my spelling errors, please. Also, it gets vulgar. I mean fuck it ;)

Backstory:

Today the upperclassmen of my highschool went to Knotts Berry Farm and it was rewarded to students who represent our high school and have not failed any classes this school year. I was excited about the opportunity since I've never gone. My older sister always told me about her experiences when she went and I was so excited. Time passes and I had a very stressful week in theater, so stressful it started my period, even though I just had one. So I was feeling not the best on the way there

Arriving at the park:

This trip was on a Thursday and that means i still have to go to school the next day, which i wasn't so thrilled about. But I didn't have the good feeling in my stomach that I had when I learned I could go on the trip. I was not excited and I was super anxious. I had a plan on what rides I wanted and didn't want to go on and there were only 2-3 that i didn't wanna go on. Eventually, I only went on 3 pr 4 different rides later that day

Here is where everything began

I was planning to go on a "Girls Day" with just my squad of 2 girls. Let's call them Casey and Daniella. Daniella's crush, who I CAN'T STAND, was there when I said a "girls day" This little shit had the audacity to invite himself to our group. I was uncomfortable at first and just dealt with it in the first couple of hours.

We go on a couple of rides and I find myself not going on many rides and being the 'backpack mom' I didn't mind it I am just disappointed to find me having a terrible day. This kid....call him, Shithead, the crush of Daniella, fainted 8 times today and vomited. I will never see noodles and Chinese food the same. We told shithead to stop going on rides and he refused after he vomited he walked it off as nothing happened.

Being around his toxic annoying ass made me feel even worse as I continue to suffer and bleed through my vagina. I just needed to vent to Casey and we talked the whole time on a roller coaster that was pretty mild. When we walked out we lost shithead and Daniella so I took it as my opportunity to go and avoid them. Casey was amazing and helped me find a group of people I was looking for. I knew they would help me of all the students in the park. The park was empty too, so we saw a lot of people. Once we found the group I hung out with them the rest of the night. The last ride i went on was hours before the park closed and I just continued to enjoy myself as best I could.

I got to talk to the boys and it was great to talk about things that I never got to talk to with my normal group of friends. Im Bi, bi the way ;), and we got to sit down and talk about relationships, girl crushes, boy crushes, and sex lol. IT sounds silly, but I got to know some of my friends better and I felt comfortable since they were comfortable with me when we talked about what makes a girl hot for a good 20 minutes.

After tea was spilled over the dinner table it was time to go home. I took time to reflect on my day and MAN WAS IT DISASTROUS. Compared to most people's first time at amusement parks, mine was terrible. Yeah im not the one who threw up, but thats a me problem. I don't wanna be part of or witness anything bad happening to someone, no matter how much i may hate them, when i was already having problems. I am just so disappointed and sad that my high hopes were anchored down. Daniella and Casey were upset about the shithead invading our privacy and apologized for me. They didn't need to do that, I'm just happy they understood.

At least it wasn't gradnight. I am making it great this year cause I am lucky to go to my favorite place on my birthday for gradnight. What are the odds? I still have cried like 3 times over this furiously but writing it definitely helped