to feel better I ......get straight up

...I don't lay in bed turning thoughts about my attractiveness over and over. I get up. That is investing in myself rather than investing energy in what others think of me. I meditate "I am enough.....I am enough....I am enough" and " I am there for you little one ( speaking to my inner child) ".

I might think " wouldn't it be nice to let myself off one time?"

I think that for 30 seconds, before I leave the notion of laying in bed trying to "think things away" and move forward. Move forward into listen to my inner parts, something much deeper than conditioned thoughts. Following them in the morning does not serve me well through out the day...

Breathing is the opposite of mulling things over for me. When I start doing doing breath of fire - it doesn't matter what Sam was thinking when she dumped me, or what expressions people have around my deathbed. What kind of fucking neurotic thoughts are these anyway ?

And I leave my sitting room feeling good , clear headed, glad to be alive - and keen to be in a good, positive place in equilibrium with myself.