Last straw

I won't be happy if I find out that I will end up having a child with severe issues because I blindly trusted medical professionals that told me everything is fine. I know that I wouldn't want anything to do with a baby that has severe abnormalities and there's nothing wrong with my belief. I've made it fucking clear that I wouldn't want to keep  a fetus with severe abnormalities in the first place by considering abortion, as it's my right and  personal choice. I've took precautions to avoid keeping and giving birth to a child with abnormalities by doing tests specifically for this. I wish I had done more test and had done the test over just to make sure because I'm fucking skeptical when it comes to   these genetic tests or test for abnormalities. Were suppose to trust those in the medical field doing these preinatal tests and making sure that your health, along with the baby is well.

To force something upon  someone that they didn't want is vile, evil and fucked up. It takes away a person's  right to choose what they want within their life.

Anyone who fucks with someone else's life like that has some fucking  nerve to walk around freely. It's  unforgiveable to play, toy with and take away someone right to choose. I really hope people didn't fucking lie in my face about my test results and have not made a so called " human error" because I'm going to sue. This is life changing which isn't a game but a serious impact towards my life. I don't give a shit what religion has to say to it or anyone else's opinion about my own belief in not wanting a child with abnormalities. At the end of the day, I have to fucking deal with and live with the consequences. Nobody else will but me because it's my fucking life here which will be effected and yet another fucking burden. Only if this is truly the case once I give birth to this baby and find out what I had doubts about all along. The fact that I can't trust anyone's words by telling me everything is fine, die to the fact that people have gravely lied to me by concealing  truths from me before, playing mind games with me and my life makes a statement. Sadly I'm having a hard time trust others because I'm thinking that I've been lied to about my baby having abnormalities.  That someone deliberately screwed up or done this on purpose to screw with my life. If I find out there is something wrong all along and I was lied to, there is nothing that will ever allow me  to fucking forgive this, as it will  impact my life.

I swear... after all the suffering, stress  and struggles I've been through while pregnant. To  only find out after 9 months that my baby has abnormalities because people who I thought I could trust actually lied, sabotaged, manipulated or fucked up is no laughing matter. Anyone involved has something coming to them and that's a promise.

I will fucking lose it!

This would be the very last time i  will keep my composure in check because people crossed the fucking line with me again big time. I honestly might go on a damn rampage as it would be the last straw with anyone fucking with my life.

I'm fed up of all the fucking  bullshit people have pulled on me and got away with. Better hope there's no issues in the end with this  child of mine because I'm not joking.