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Abortion. When I hear this term, I think of a woman. A woman should have a choice with HER own body and nobody else should really have a say. I was not this passionate about women's rights until I had an abortion myself. It has been a week and a half since I chose to abort my rapidly dividing cells that were making me feel weak, helpless, and miserable. I had always thought that I would never become pregnant at such a young age. I am 22 years old, a senior college student studying to become a doctor and apply to graduate school next year. I do not mean to brag, but I was working two jobs and volunteered at a hospital (for hours to apply to grad school). I only mention this to give you guys a sense of my goal-orientated state of mind. I only live and breathe school. Yes, I do have a boyfriend who is the complete opposite of me; dropped out of community college because he could not find his niche, works a minimum wage job, but would much rather jump right into the workforce than spend time at college. I always looked down on girls who became teen moms, or dropped out of school to become a mom. Those are the sacrifices THEY were willing to make. But me, when I peed on that stick and it quickly came back as positive, I had no clue what to do. The most I thought about abortion was, "yeah, women's body, women's choice." But to actually make such a difficult decision on my own really messed with my brain for a bit. I had a potential human life depending on what I should do. Of course, I suspected I was pregnant when my period did not arrive 2 days after it was supposed to. But then, I did not think anything of it. Again, I thought that it would never happen to me. With my luck, it did. For 2 weeks straight, I was nauseated. The feeling did not go away unless I fell asleep, so I would sleep for 16-18 hours a day, feeling miserable as ever. I had no appetite, even my favorite foods still disgust me. I immediately threw up almost everything I ate. My boobs got bigger overnight. I had cramps STILL. I was dizzy and lightheaded. I was dehydrated but I drank water nonstop. I was quickly agitated, most likely because of how I was feeling. But most importantly, I was depressed. I cried myself to sleep every night, contemplating my decision and future. My boyfriend and I talked for a few days about our options, but by then, I already had my mind made up. He wanted me to keep it, but yet when I said i wanted an abortion, he agreed with me. I went to Planned Parenthood and opted for the medical abortion, so I could endure it alone. I felt like it was what I deserved. I am a very private person, so my family do not know what I have gone through these past few weeks. After I had taken the first pill at the clinic, I called my boyfriend and asked if he wanted to meet up. He was very hesitant, but came to my rescue when moments later, I was throwing up in the parking lot. That was the worst of it. When I took the second set of pills at my house, I thought I would feel regret, but I didn't. I know my boyfriend is hurt about me aborting it, but he knew it was ultimately up to me. I would love to have kids with him in the future, but I am honestly scared of enduring what I went through with the morning sickness and everything else that happens with pregnancy. I am relieved that I aborted it, but I feel sad at the same time. I am not sure what I feel sad about. Is it because my hormones are still fluctuating? Is it because now I have stretch marks on my boobs from how fast they grew and now they are lopsided? (nothing wrong with stretchmarks, I just need to adjust and accept my body for what it is now) Is it because I made a difficult decision alone? Did I really make the right choice? I am not entirely sure and need help?
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I am here with you. I am you with a different back story. I too terminated just a few days ago and I can't get past this I can't stop crying. My boobs don't hurt anymore and I'm not throwing up all day and all I feel is hurt. It's almost 6am I work on 2hrs yet I'm up..crying, hurting.
ReplyUse birth control or dont have sex if you dont want pregnancy. You could've adopted it
ReplyIt was not YOUR body at all, but another person's body that was meant to nourish and grow inside you so that later on you could give birth and look after this tiny person. From my point of view you were too selfish to give this person a chance. You took her/his life away and stopped him/her of having any future at all. You should be able to get barly sugar candy or sweets from a super market for nausea. Most pregnant mothers have a hard time with pregnancy. You could have at least given this person a life by adopting her/him out. At least now you will always have the stretch marks and lopsided boobs to remind you of what you have done.
ReplyYoure literally disgusting...please dont listen to this person above^ you are right...your body, your choice :)
ReplyIf a female is raped, no foetus is supposed to be in her body. Women cannot be at the mercy of men.
ReplyIposted the truth here and it was deleted. Fine. If abortion wasn't bad people wouldn't cry over it. That's all I will say. It couldve been you who was aborted though. Think about that. Dismembered given a shot while fighting to climb back inside the birth canal. Yeah. Watch a video if you think its ok.
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