My Unsent Letter

You brought many smiles to my face after my heart was broken and I thank you. My journey of life led me to being in my mid 30s before I realized that my idea of the perfect woman was not beauty alone, which you have plenty of the physical. You have the inner beauty I didn't know I was looking for. You have the sense of humor that I wasn't aware I longed for. You have the emotional honestly that made me feel your pain and wish to make it no more. You told me your fears and you told me your joys. You are blunt and you made me happy. I learned the meaning of patience that I never knew before because I was forever impatient. I would have waited as long as you needed me to, and deep inside I always will. I tried to hide my feelings until I had to voice them to you. I feel like my chance was ruined by a man I will never know, and I really wish it was different. Your worth is much more than a man's opinion or actions. He was below your standards, physically, emotionally, he wasn't pleasant, he was way out of his league with you. And he succeeded in his mission. I can't stand that fact. I can't stand that I still care about you, that I won't see you again. I shed tears that I hadn't shed years over not having the real chance at showing you a man can be what I wanted to be to you. I didn't wanna be your everything, nor a title. I wanted a chance. I believe you cared, and I wish I knew why. You were confusing but you also blew me away. The first time I saw you I felt like I never have, but my excitement and mind was in tact. I wish things could be different and I wish you the best. You are the best woman I have met no matter the outcome. I am so thankful for the chance at knowing you, and getting to know you, and for you being you. And just as this journey started, it ends with you bringing a smile to my face with a broken heart.