To someone I want to escape from

Dear Dad,

You make me feel worthless. You’re a narcissist with a god complex, you act like you provide. You beat your children mentally, until they’re numb inside. You bring in money from your disability, which you brought upon yourself, when you wouldn’t listen to anyone when they tried to help you with your health. My brother was right when he and you got in that fight, he never has to speak with you again. I still have flashbacks about that night when I heard you tell Mom to kill herself and jump off a bridge. She won’t ever leave you, though she used to talk about divorce. She can’t ever knock you off your high horse. She tries and tries to help you, tending to your needs, picking up your meds, but all u do is yell at her when she asks if you took them. You’re causing your own destruction and you won’t let us help, you put Mom on edge and it effects all our mental health. Three times she woke me up by yelling about small matters, always complaining to me about the things other people do, unable to bring herself to get away from you. You are the reason I cry myself to sleep, the reason I think I’m stupid, the reason I can’t breath. Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts up to 5 times a day, without provocation. My mind is in disarray. I can’t tell anyone about how u made me feel when you called me retarded for not understanding math. You don’t understand why I don’t ask for help, when talking to you makes me feel overwhelmed. You never say please, you almost never say thank you, you call me selfish when everyday I make you food because you can’t walk 20 feet from the couch to put something in the microwave. You think you’re so smart, you think you’re so much better, I know you’re good at heart, but your always too bitter. Grandpa was so kind, but Grandma was so mean. You take after her in the ways you treat your children like shit, because you think fancy vacations and good food gives you an excuse to make all of us go through mental and verbal abuse.

I want to escape,

I.g.