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I cut again, I lied again, I promised I wouldn't do either again, but I did. This time I really think I'm not going to tell you about it. You are the first person to genuinely care, and I think you made a mistake in caring about me. I will let you down. I am predisposed by messed up and physically abused parents to let you down. And because I don't want to tell you about the new cuts- I refuse to tell you this time- I'm writing it down here. Because I refuse to hurt us both. And I know it hurts you when I hurt myself, but I can't bring myself to tell you. I don't think I can bear it to hear you ask me if I'll keep my promises this time (again), because I will always want to- and will- tell you, "Yes," even when it's a lie. I have a problem, I know. I should get help, I know. You want to save me, I know. I just don't think I can do it. I love you too much to hurt you, and it's detrimental to us both. I cut, you feel like shit. I make you feel like shit, and then I feel worse, leading to more lying, more cutting. I'm damaging our relationship, I know, I can see the spiderweb cracks beginning. I cut again, I'm lying again, you're not the first one who tried to stay, you won't be the last to leave. I'm truly sorry, I just can't stop myself- I don't really want to. I'll miss you more than the others when you're gone too, though.
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