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A few months ago, I tried to kill myself by starving and dehydrating myself. On my 4th day of not eating or drinking a single thing, I was so weak and almost at my limit- I literally couldn't get out of bed, sit upright, and would black out everytime I tried standing up. I didn't touch my phone throughout the whole week because I was such in a dark place, until I decided to turn on my phone to message my friend. I didn't tell her what i was trying to do, but she knew something was wrong with me and was there for emotional support. I felt better after our chat through text, so I decided to drink water and search up a Suicide Hotline. In the middle of searching up a Suicide Hotline, my aunt (I lived with her) changed the WiFi password so I couldn't access the internet anymore. At that exact moment she did that, I was waiting 4th on que on the Suicide Hotline. So i turned on my mobile data but I still wasn't connected to the internet, until I found out that she removed my phone off the bill (I don't know what you exactly call it). And at that point, I just completely lost it all and gave up and just wanted to die. The worst part is that my aunt told me that i should kill myself.
All of that happened a few months ago. I now live with my physically and mentally abusive parents again. Two days from now, I'll be dead, so I guess it was best to share this because my family and relatives would never believe in it if I were to tell them. Second, I just want to thank my friend who was there for me. I truly do owe you one.
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I hope not ok. I have abusive family too my dad told me the same thing your aunt did to you. I've been dehydrated before it's no fun near blacking out. You can still call 911 from any phone regardless. They'd help you get any emotional or mental help you need but it probably won't be pleasant. Don't harm yourself I know things don't seem the greatest at the moment but they're temporary. Ending it is permanent. If you have any other family or friends confide in them tell them what's going on. Just don't give up ok.
ReplyPlease please please. Eat something drink something and stay fit. Dont give up. If living with those kind of parents is killing you so much from inside then just runaway or stay with your that frnd or with someone whom you trust for few days and try getting help. If you have lost the hope to live or the reason for it, then find it and please don't give up on yourself. The first thing is staying physically stable please do that. I don't wanna lose you even if I don't know you. I don't know how difficult this time might be to you. But there's always light when you move ahead. Things will get better definitely. Be hero of your own life. Stay fit and then think about how important life is. Brain is a weird organ but it still has some nerves who'll save you. Life is all about moving on and ending it will give permanent pain to your frnd who has been with you and also to us as a society who would fail saving souls like you. You deserve better and please stay. I hope life goes being normal for you. Please read this or re think please.
ReplyPlease don't. Your life is precious. Think of all the things that you could do if you stayed alive. The small happy things around you. Pets, your pillow and happy rainbows. Cherish your life. These feelings shall pass. You are a human being and you don't and will never deserve such people. Find new friends or open up to someone. Pls reply me if you need someone to talk to.
ReplyYour aunt shouldn't treat you like that.
Telling somebody to kill themselves is a serious crime. If you recorded that, you'd have proof of how poorly you're treated.
If you're a minor, you could get assistance.
ReplyPlease don't! Please, please, please, don't give up! If you can't do it for you, do it for me! I've been there were my parents treat me like I was trash, and how they wanted to make killed. You know-how much emotional I am right now, for you? Please, eat, and drink, stay alive, as you can. If you wanna talk, I'll be here! Please just don't give up on life, I wish I could give you a hug right now, you know how much your life is worth! Please re-think this, I'll be here, I'm always here. Don't hesitate to talk to me, OKAY? Please stay alive for me...
ReplyI wanna kill myself right now I'm at the edge and struggle to go any further. But stay strong and keep pushing through
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