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We were 12 years old when we met but did not become friends til the next year. Part of me wishes I would have taken advantage of that year where we did not speak. You for real amazed me. I still remember the first time I made you laugh. The way that your eyes closed to where you couldn't see & your braces showed is the image that I see when I think back to the start of where two kids started their love story. But just like every story I have ever read there is an ending . No matter how bad I did not want an ending to a story that I was co-writing, it was not completing up to me. To think that it has been months and I still can not find closure. I don't know what spell you put on me but I think it is only fair that if you ended the greatest thing in my life that you can do me the favor and explain the things that I still wonder every night. The things that are stopping me from moving on and has me questioning my self worth. I gave you five, almost six years of my life that I tried my hardest to fill with love and affection. I loved you on days that I did not even love myself. I built you back up on days when i did not have the ability to keep myself up. It has been almost 4 months and you are already with someone else that I know will not offer even half of what I gave you. So what exactly about him draws you to be with him instead of me? As much as it would hurt, they are the answers that I need to know to be able to live on. Did I not buy you enough flowers? Was it the fact that you felt that you were too good for me because I never used your problems as an excuse to ignore you like you did to me? You of all people. I told you about the worst times in my life because I wanted you to understand why I am the reason I am how I am. I did not know that the other side of that was to be back handed with it in the upcoming years. I don't know why I still let you live rent free in my mind with the only cost being my happiness, but I do. The part of me that is always on guard saw something like this coming long before I think you did but that is only because I loved you so much I think I knew you more than you did at times. The dry text & the lack of desire to see me. It was like you used the disasters in life as a way out since you wouldn't be seen as the bad guy but little do you know that I would never let that happen to you out of respect for the love that grew from my brain to my heart and let it be the decision maker instead of what I knew what was best for myself. If I am going to be completely honest, you suck. The words that you told me ripped out my heart and made my depression rise to its peak when I needed you most. But no, you'd rather have fun than talk to me , the one who loves you most and that pushed you to be the best you that you could be. I wish I could have my 6 years of knowing you back because honest I learned nothing from this. What we had was so special that others would tell me how amazed they were & how they wish they could find what we had. My friends still tell me how they thought we would grow old together. That we went together so well. It is one thing to hear that from friends but when I find out my family thought the same thing, that broke me because I had the hope that we would. Life still goes on and I guess I will just have to live with it. Just know that you broke my heart and as much as I would like to be your friend, it is not that easy. I hope that you find someone that will love you with all they got. That you have a great life without me. As much as this hurts, for the very last time I would just like to say that I love you so much. I really hope that this dumb decision does not haunt you in the long run. As much as you hurt me I never wish that you pay the consequences. Please stay close with your grandma. She was the sweetest lady I'd ever met and tell her I am sorry we never got our day of baking. I hope you siblings have great success in everything they do and your parent can find a way to make it past the dark tunnel. Goodbye my first love...
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