School is exhausting.

On the Weekends, I feel most calm and productive. I like company but not the kind of company that you would particularly be overwhelmed or drained by. Anyways, every time I’m alone on the weekends or spending time with my family, I feel better. It helps alleviate my symptoms of depression. However, when Monday hits, I get morning depression. I hate the feeling so much. It’s that kind of feeling where instead of waking up and feeling grateful, I feel a huge wave wash over me and tell me ‘get up, today is school’ and I just lay there and reflect on how much of an atrocious day I’ll have. I know I’ll be leaving school soon, but it’s the same place where I developed anxiety, low self-esteem and experienced loss of friends and bullying. I hate being a part of it. I hope I graduate soon but I know I’ll have about 2-3 breakdowns again this week, just like last week.