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ive never experienced this much pain before. In the past 12 hours ive cried 5 times. i just realised that. Normally im just numb in my emotions but ive never cried like this before. im scared my sadness/depression is just getting worse. the saddest part is i just keep thinking how i always check up on my friends if theyre mentally okay and no one ever asks me and thats all i need. i need one person to ask me how im doing mentally and im gonna break down crying and open up about everything im going through. But sadly im still waiting for someone to ask me if im ok. its been 3 years and im still waiting to share my feeelings. The fact that im going through my depression attacks alone is the worst. i dont think i can hold on any longer.
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Pro tip: don't fight the crying, that it out as best you can. Don't hold back, don't judge yourself.
Allowing that emotional pain to finally surface and release is a wonderful thing. I know it hurts, I know it sucks and you probably feel like you're gonna throw up.
That is ok. Just make sure you're prepped. Tissues, trashcan, and water.
Let those emotions come up and just let them be. Doesn't matter how long it goes, or how many times. Just let go.
If you can, try to find the reasons behind it after you've done cried. When you begin crying again, try to recall those reasons so they can be released.
Trust me, this is how you get better. Once the crying has stopped for a day, you're going to start feeling a strange energy. For me, it was like a little fire in the center of my chest. For you it might be different.
Whatever it ends up being, use that energy to start a morning ritual for yourself. Invest in researching any aspects you'd like to change about yourself. Start meditating, exercise daily, fix your diet to be more healthy.
There are a ton of things you can do to take advantage of this particular state if you let it go naturally. It doesn't make you weak, it doesn't make you wrong.
Replythank you so much for motivating me that really helped. doing a little better now and just trying to focus on positive thoughts
Replyhope you are doing well.
we are here if you would like to share what is paining you
feeling lonely is hard
not having someone you can talk things out with makes things difficult
so share over here.. we are all ears.
and we will do our best to be there for you.
whenever you feel sad and feel like crying.. let it out
crying after numbness is actually a good thing.. it means your emotions finally registered what your heart is trying to say.
did you lose someone who meant the world to you?
are you burnt out from life's difficulties?
share.. talk it out .. it helps.. it helps sometimes to say it out loud. other times just crying can help.. find what makes you feel better .. what relieves your stress.. your hurt..
if you felt like talking and there is someone who you consider someone you can trust, talk to them without them asking you.. if you don't have that someone
we're here if you want to talk
you got this
hope you are feeling better
Replyi lost some people not literally but emotionally. I lost my closest friends who were my best friends for 5 years because i had to move countries and now i hate it here because i have no childhood memories relating to anything. i miss everything the way it used to be. the worst part is that theres not a day that doesnt go by without me thinking about my life before the move and my friends before the move and i still say happy birthday to them every year. But this year on my birthday half of my friends forgot and it killed me because im just a memory to them now. 5 years later they will forget me and and my existance. The best years of my life were with them and now they have probably forgotten half of the memories we made. it just hurts really bad. Did i not mean anything to them. Was 5 years of friendship really easy to forget and move on. because i still havent moved on and its almost been 4 years since the move. thanks for listening ily
Replyit is sad to lose friends along the way .. along the journey called life. but and this is important .. you can make a lot of friends but real ones stick.. they stay.. this just means you still didn't meet the right friend who will be there for you as you to them.. and sometimes life get so busy that we part and may lose touch with each other.. real friends no matter how distant you are from them or how little you have spoken, once you meet again .. you pick up from where you left off like no time has passed and not distance was taken..
we can be so hung over the past comfort zone.. what we had, where we were, who we knew.. that we fail to look forward towards who we can meet what we can have and what new experiences we will see..
make quality friends.. more than quantity friends.. look at the friends who still wished you a happy birthday.. they are the ones you should be focusing on ..
distance may part you but hey .. it only means that later in life you have a few more places to visit where there are people you can meet with again..
And always.. always see what you do have.. yes .. it sucks that you have parted ways from childhood memories, but whose to say you want visit them again.. or meet again.. create new memories in every place you visit and take with you one object that reminds you of that memory with you.. even if it is just a seashell from a near by beach for example.. make a memory box and collect memories that would remind you of your past memories.. and then create new memories and add them in the box..
when you have to move again .. look at that box and remind yourself of the good times and then have the courage to make new good times..
after all life is but memories and beautiful moments saved forever in our mind and the loved ones minds..
you got this.. you get to see more of the world get a map and scratch out what you visited and where you lived.. this can actually be a beautiful experience ;)
Replydon't be scared. tears are produced to release hormones, and once they have evacuated your eyes, you will hopefully see the world in a better way. sadness is better than numbness any day because while numbness blokes out the pain, it also keeps happiness away.
Replythanks for replying. i definitely understand what you mean after the long cries from the other day i can now understand what was hurting me the most. doing a little better but school is just adding to my stress and i hate life rn and want to become a caveman in 85 B.C.
ReplyMake sure you see a doctor.
Replyi dont think i can. im too scared to let people know if im depressed. if i go to the doctor and they diagnose me with depression my family and friends will think im weak and i cant stand the thought of them treating me differently. but my sadness/depression is destroying me from the inside and yet no one notices.
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