The Wolf

I realized I was alone from the very beginning, which explains why I just had to do this thing for myself. Now, here I am asking myself if I made the right decision by pursuing this new career path. I have no blood support and with a jealous narc mother and a narc father how am I supposed to move forward? One wants me to have children for their own selfish reasons of maintaining a legacy that they haven't for themselves. Then a narc mom who wants me to be single for her benefit so she can parasite my life and impose on all facets with this fallacy into thinking that I want to be anything like her. I'm not a statistic and I'm learning to find my own way - It's been the best on my own and with two diplomas already - I know that nursing is where I'm supposed to go. How will I get there? I have no idea, but I am trying to work through it. Living on my own means everything comes from me - I gotta do the grocery shopping, the cooking, the cleaning, the laundry, returning packages, going for exercise, going for appointments, it is way more challenging this time. But if I fled abuse, I CAN CONQUER ANY DAMN THING! I KNOW THEY WERE SHOCKED THAT I LEFT BECAUSE THEY CHOSE TO STAY, THEY WANT HISTORY TO REPEAT ITSELF AND IT WON'T STAND A CHANCE WITH ME - I'VE ALREADY BROKEN IT.

hERE I AM <3