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i have a little sister, who loves to copy everything i do, and i mean EVERYTHING. so now i just realized that she will start to copy my bad habits too, if she ever found out about them. i have a cutting addiction, i abuse painkillers and i have really bad eating habits.
please please tell me how to stop doing these things, i wouldn’t wish this on anyone. i couldn’t forgive myself if she did this.
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Well, you're already in the right mind frame to actually fix these things it seems. You've got a good motivator and sound logic to stop.
Before I give you any suggestions, I just have to say that I find it quite cute that your little sister likes to mimic you and she obviously looks up to you. So I just have to say that this is an awesome thing, plus it requires you to be aware of the things you do that are more negative. Something that most people wouldn't even pay attention to. But you do, this makes you a good person.
Perhaps that's where your journey to recovery really begins, understanding that you are actually a decent human being that deserves love, joy, happiness and hope. You have to be the one to realize that, I can't force you to accept it nor can I word it in such a manner that you'll accept it.
Though I do hope that you can see it in yourself. I suspect you suffer a great deal with depression, emotional pain and maybe you've also got some sort of physical condition that requires you to use painkillers, maybe not.
First things first, your addiction to painkillers has to be addressed through a 12 step program. Narcotics Anonymous (NA) will be your best bet. I strongly suggest that you try to find an NA group or gathering in your area. If you can't find one, you may also consider talking with a local mental health clinic, they may have resources that you weren't able to find.
The addiction is your biggest problem here. Though it doesn't undersell your tendency to self harm. That is extremely important as well.
In terms of the self harm, I'm imaging this has to do with some extremely bad repressed trauma or ongoing trauma. Maybe you were physical or sexually abused or bullied frequently in school, or one of your parents exited the picture. There could be a variety of reasons as to why you do this to yourself, but generally speaking cutting is usually used as an emotional release.
So the question is, do you you know which emotions you're able to release when you do cut? Does it help you cry? Does it make you feel real? Is it because you can't feel anything at all? What do you get out of cutting?
Understanding why you cut can help you understand the emotional blockage you're experiencing. Addressing that blockage and overcoming it with the help of a professional therapist can help you cease in self harming acts.
You're awake to yourself, that is q very good thing. I know it may not seem like it is right now, but you have the opportunity to take the wheel now and steer your life where you want it to go. All because your baby sister sees you. Something you've probably needed for most of your life, just to be seen by someone, to know someone actually cares about you and what happens to you. That realization might invoke an urge to cry, I'd encourage you to allow that to surface if thats the case.
Your journey in recovery is going to cross all three elements of how you exist. Physically, emotionally and consciously. But you have to make the decision to take that wheel, no one else can steer it for you.
Life calls you to awaken yourself to the torment inside your mind. It will not be an easy or joyous journey, but the end result will be worth it. That much, I can promise you.
Replythank you so so much, you’re an amazing person <3
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