i am scared

I am scared and scar-ed. I want to be saved. But can I help itthat I can't be. What happened today shook me up inside out. I was late fordinner. I accept it, it was my mistake as I did not realize how time went by. Out of nowhere my dad screamed from the other side of the door and asked me to come out. Okay accepted. But it didn’t even scratch the tip to what was waiting for me. As I opened the door the loudest sharpest tone of language hit me. It scared me crazy. The anger in my dad’s eyes was like a furious fire afraid he would do something to me. My room key got taken away. Even though I looked calm I was dead in fear. My mind froze and as I got into the bathroom, I was dust. I don’t feel safe at home anymore. I want an escape. I can't get it out of my head. His loud voice stabbed me like a sharp hot knife. His eyes don’t portray even a ray of kindness for his own daughter. I am scared of everything that is to come.  I fear my very own existence and whether I deservea life or not. I am shaking, sitting here knowing that it can only get worse.