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I'm scared of it.
And not that it's close or anything. Heck, I'm 15. I'm not even an adult yet. I'm perfectly healthy. Not dying anytime soon.
But, my parents? In my book, there is this author who died at age 63. 63. That's less than 20 years for both mom and dad.
And my teachers? I have this teacher who's really old. He makes me think, what when I'm that old? Right now, I got stuff to do. I got big dreams to fulfill. Lives to save , transplants to perform. But what then? When death will be so close, what then?
I just can't imagine it. Losing someone close to me. Never hearing their voice again, never being able to hug them, never being able to say I love you again. Never.
And, what will I do? What will I do? My parents are 45 or so, long time, I know. But I'm scared.
For myself too. Just, gone. No more beautiful sights to see, no more melodies to hear,no more chocolate to taste. Gone.
And the worst part is, I can't do anything about it. I can't prevent death.
I miss my childhood. I just feel, being an adult is great , but I would rather relive my childhood. And my brother. I didn't get enough time with him. I want to play with him. All day long. But I gotta study. And I'm going away next year. Not fair.
I want to accept it. All of it.
Childhood is over. I won't ever meet so many people again. School will be over soon too.
I want to focus only on my goals now. But I had to vent out here. This has been bugging me, and I need to hear someone tell me it's okay (or read that, in this case).
For those who read till the end, thank you. And thank you in advance to those who will comment.
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Do this mediation:
Imagine all the life and energy in the body focused at one point, in the "middle". (That middle will be unique for you.) After which you imagine that you are bringing this life out of your body and seeing it front of you. This "life" you take it through walls.
According to a guru, fear of death vanishes if this is done properly. (He said that this is the hardest meditation.)
ReplyOk, yup, that's kinda tough. But it awesome. Thanks!
ReplyYou’re a Kind, loving person and you worry about people you love and it’s beautiful. People feel and think this way sometime in their lives, and it’s natural (as long as it wouldn’t affect your daily life). You’re young and you have a long way ahead of you. Enjoy every moment and try to be a good person.
I suggest you read books in addition to your studies. Reading the right, positive books can help you to widen your perception of life and calm you in moments of need (ask for suggestions from family or a knowledgeable person). Care about people and love them and don’t be afraid to do so.
I believe there’s more to humans, more to our souls.
If you keep feeling this way, talk to someone, or speak with a professional.
ReplyThank you for your advice!
ReplyHi. I'm 15 too. Death is a scary thing, recognizing your fear is good. I believe in heaven (im catholic), and that it is like a big party, with plenty of things to hear and see and taste. I would say continue to focus on your goals and decide what they mean to you. I love you and I'm praying for you.
ReplyHey!
I'm a Hindu, and we have our own heaven as well, and it is awesome. I guess it brings solace to know that even after death, there is a wonderful place to go to. Thanks, and love you too!
ReplyAt 45 your parents are still young. Old is over 70. Don't worry about these things. The teacher who you said is really old isn't old at all because he is still working. You probably think 20 is old too. You should visit a nursing home and meet old people then you might begin to understand what old is.
With God, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit in your life you won't ever fear death.
ReplyHi! So, thank you for the advice. I live in a part of Asia and we don't have old age homes here, but I get your point. And you're right. 45 isn't old.
And,I'm a Hindu, but I believe in all religions. You know, instead of fighting over which god exists, why can't we just say they all do, right?
Reply"Life.
I'm happy with it.
And not that it's perfect or anything. I'm 27. Guess I'm an adult. I'm perfectly healthy.
My parents are perfectly healthy aswell. They're at their 60's. Plenty more beautiful years to live."
You could think of beautiful and good things instead of worrying yourself about the future buddy. Nobody knows what's gonna happen, enjoy the now. Take all the worries and bad thoughts, put them in a bag and say to yourself that you don't have time to think about them.
Spend time with the ones you love and be as happy as you can be. Wish you the best.
ReplyThank you! :)
ReplyI've experienced this before when I was around your age. I am 28 now. It's normal for all sentient beings to fear death as it is an unknown what truly happens after we die and it's very scary.
What helped me the most like the first commenter was meditation accept I focused on something different. I should clarify before I go any further. I used to be plagued with nightmares and night terrors of death I would see it in my dreams and feel as though it was with me everywhere.
When I did this meditation I focused on acceptance and release. The acceptance that it is apart of life that all things die eventually. As the old adage "for every new beginning there will be an end". Once I got there I pictured Every person that was important to me and accepted that they too will experience this date maybe before me or after me. So I greived and wept and released it out. Once I understood this I live each day as true to me as possible and what makes me happy and I am content with my life and the people I have in it.
Don't let the fear override the good you want to bring into this world. From what I read it sounds like you want to be a doctor of some kind. Focus on that and try to save as many lives as you can and improve the quality of their lives and yours through that work. Even if you change your major and follow a different path you can still improve other people's lives by supporting a cause focused on improving others lives. I forgot who said it, but "there is no better purpose then dedicating one's self to the betterment of others, that are less fortunate than yourself".
I hope you have a wonderful day and this provides you with another perspective to add clarity for you. Be well.
ReplyThank you so much, and yes, it did. 😀
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