i guess i'm invisible...

...invalidated, disrespected, jilted, devalued, forgotten, ignored...

I'm supposed to be able to come to you with anything. That was our promise to each other, but you chose to say one of the most hurtful things to me. I've told you openly how I feel and you chose to neglect my feelings because it was against her.

With those few words you said on mistake, I've fully understood what exactly you think of me. To you, I'm incapable of rising to your level. To her level. I'm beneath the two of you and should stay there. It interferes with what you have. The boundaries I've respected of yours still in place, as you so wish.

Despite my boundaries being obliterated to pieces, I appreciate you genuinely apologizing to me. I'm still crushed by the weight of what you said but I'm so proud of you at the same time. It's frustrating. What little confidence I had built for myself being snuffed out before I can really enjoy it.

so I guess I'm just stuck being invisible...