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I know it now... I'm already back to were I was before. Just like then slowly fall out of life... Close down to myself, tough, unable to let anyone in because I can't handle the disappointment. Stop being able to make time for whoever. Tired of begging others for their time, now I want to cut everyone off. Yeah it's hard. Anytime in my life if you asked me I'd say yeah it's hard. Not because I'm greedy. Because I'm blue. Always. I always have a reason to be sad. I always have a good enough reason to never fall asleep at night. To get drunk and get too close to suicide. Maybe deep down I know I even regretted falling in love. That was sad. A sad, pathetic experience I had with love and I come out of it more disappointed than before. See there is no time in my life which I'm not scared of. But for a couple of years my way of thinking changed. And it was a scary transition, a scary realization. Now I'm going back to a person I don't remember how to be. I was never healthy but back then I used to love making my body bleed all the time. I said I'd stop but it's getting harder to resist becoming angry and bitter... It's uncool, it's unattractive... And if you ever fall in love again you realise you wasted your time but I'm about to do it again... Enough said. I wish I was never born. But I also wouldn't mind dying a slow, painful death.
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Hey,
I’m so sorry to hear what you are experiencing. Please try your absolute hardest not to give into the temptation of self harm.
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ReplyI understand how you feel since I've been in that situation before where everything is a blur. I want you to know that there is more to life than what we see, we have the capability to chance our destiny starting with how we think. I know it's hard and its never going to be easy to battle with yourself but please hang in there. I know that better days are coming and you can see rainbows soon. First thing you should do is talk to someone, someone you trust and will hear you out. Lots of hugs.
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