My Unsent Letter

Hey you,

I have so many thoughts going on right now on my mind. All i have ever wanted is care, love, respect.

Today, i know you don't respect me anymore.

I know you don't care for me.

I know there is no love left in you for me.

I always find you in my opposite team. Your opinion is always contrary to mine.

It is easy to hope for improvement in a person when you know the other person realises the issue.

In your case, you never try to understand your mistakes.

You always fight and try to prove that you are correct.

You just reply for the sake of winning the argument.

You never reply to understand me.

As i am writing this right now, i can already imagine your contradicting replies to each of my sentences here.

I feel there is no solution to this. I really want to spend my life with you.

But i won't be able to do it unless there is no love and respect.

If i cry, you call it fake.

If i am not well, you think it is fake.

If i do something good for you, you think i have some ulterior motive behind it.

I don't know what i did to deserve this.

But it really hurts me that you call all of it fake.

You say i am faking my depression. You just never understand.

I sometimes feel like dying. I cannot imagine a life without you.

I know you care when you understand that i am sad. But the problem is you rarely understand. You rarely understand my sadness, my issues.

You get your mood swings when i am on my periods and it gets worse for me.

How can you simply call it fake and laugh at it when i am crying?

Why do you treat me as your enemy?

I am just feeling lost and lonely right now. I don't know what to do.