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Feelings that Fade
8 years ago · 2
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It"s early May, which means graduation, from high school and college. Some people are finishing up their educational career while others are deciding whether or not to chase after aspirations in the next stage of their academic lives. It"s been a few months since I graduated, it took me an extra semester to get that diploma, but my school is somewhat odd in that there are no ceremonies at the semester. So if you want to walk across the stage you have to wait until everyone else does. Being done at the semester meant that I"d be in limbo for a while. All of my closest friends, my roommates, those I considered brothers, left a year ago now, which is crazy to believe. So I spent my extra time on campus somewhat reinvented, finding new people to fit in with although deep down I knew it wouldn"t be the same.
There are two extremes for a student at this point in their lives, pure excitement for the adventure of what lies ahead, you can be or do anything you want, truly. And then the other, the fear that comes from the exact same things. What do I do now, I have so much debt, so much to live up to. But after sitting here at my desk, being in the real world for a few months, and having a job, the things that stick out to me are those that have begun to fade.
It"s a feeling that I honestly don"t think can be avoided. What"s made me realize this is the fact that I"m still living and working in the town I attended university, and seeing the difference between the people that are accepting their diplomas on schedule this week, and myself. One year ago today I was soaking up the last few days of the relationships with all the ones I"d grown to love, trying to be present and talking about how we wouldn"t let anything change. Fast forward to know and we really have tried our best, we"ve seen each other more than expected and talk weekly, but theres no substitute for the togetherness and community the college campus brings.
So what am I trying to say with this? To be honest, I was just feeling some kinda way and miss a whole lot of people. But I will say that if you are a senior and you"re leaving a place you"ve called home for the past few years, be present. Don"t worry about what lies ahead right now. Do absolutely everything that you can to make as many memories and experiences that you can, because no matter what you can do those memories, those relationships fade, they change with time, and you"ll make new friends you"ll have new experiences, but these are the ones that form who you are, in an incredibly important season of life. It"ll be over before you know it, and you"ll be wondering why so many amazing moments transformed into a giant blur. So try and take as many mental snapshots as you can, and think about them as often as possible. Keep them fresh, keep them vibrant, and live it to all the potential it can bring.
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ReplyI like this post. I can relate to it so much! I graduated at semester too, and I had to wait to have the ceremony too. Small college. About a year and a half since I finished school, I really struggle with daily routine with my life and job. I like new things and adventure. When each day is basically the same, it's hard. Do you experience any of that?
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