Tears are falling...

I sit there in the same spot that we used to spend our evenings together. Where we said goodbye but never left. Where we spent hours intertwined with each other mentally and physically. Are souls have separated and found happiness somewhere else. You with her and me alone finally trying not to just be an accessory to a man. As we sit in this place of memories I glanced at your lips. I began to crave their touch as I looked deeper at them. You turned your head in my direction and I immediately look away... but I couldn't stop. In every moment you looked away I looked again... and then I would hide my desire as you looked at me. You are finally happy and I never want to ruin that for you. I've never wanted someone to be this happy. I would do anything to ensure that you never stop smiling. I hate that my mind is corrupt with the lust I still have for you. I want to move on so that you can be happy yet my heart is making it harder to pretend I'm over you. Obviously you mean a lot to me. Obviously I would never jeopardize your happiness... yet I still wanted to kiss you so bad. To get lost in your soul just one more time. To pretend that we made it for just a couple moments. I wanted us to work so bad. Everytime I look at you I try so hard to hold back my feelings because all I want is for you to be happy and I know that's not with me. I miss the way we sat for hours getting lost in you playing the piano. I miss grabbing your hand when you were going through hard times. I miss the way you looked at me when I was being goofy and just said with your eyes how much you loved me. I miss sitting there pretending like I was going to say goodbye... but instead we never let go. I miss the way we used to be... but now I just want you to be happy. So goodbye. I'm sorry I couldn't be what you needed. Goodbye.