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So yeah, I weighted myself today and you know watching that number so high was devastating for me. I wouldn’t say I ever had a real ed but my relationship with food has never been healthy. I’ve always had periods of times when I was gaining weight, other periods I was almost skinny. I always hated the scale, maybe because since I was growing up I was told that I had to watch what I ate and stuff. I’ve always been overweight, never reached obesity but I’ve been bullied various times, by family members or anons on the internet for this. I can’t eat a thing more without feeling all the gain in every inch of my body, and I live in a house where I was never really helped about it, all my mother always say Is: you should lose weight. But then I find myself busy during the day and can’t cook always for myself and I have to eat what she cooks. I want to cry right now because I’ve been having such a hard time and adding this problem was not what I needed right now. But I knew already, I watched myself in the mirror and saw that my thighs are bigger, that I can’t look at my arms anymore because they feel huge to me, that my belly doesn’t fit in my jeans anymore. It’s so hard believe me, I just feel like I don’t want to touch food anymore, and I’ll stop drinking that’s for sure, I don’t even like anymore drinking beer or wine or whatever else, I just force myself drinking or eating more than I need to lots of times. I hope I’ll make it.
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I use to be chunky, and worked super hard to make a healthier life for myself. It is a lifestyle change diets are temporary. I never weigh myself because my weight fluctuates, sometimes its because it's that time of the month, or i ate carbs all day. I go by how I feel and when I look in the mirror do I like what I see. I know my body will never be perfect and I am okay with that. On the weekends its good to meal prep so you have an idea of what you will eat during the week . Also whenever you feel bored go out for a walk. It takes time. I also had to remind myself to when losing weight to be realistic like you won't see a change for at least 3 months. Start with baby steps you got this.
ReplyJust remember this: Food is NOT the enemy. Self-hate is.
You're not alone, too! I feel the same way as you. Don't let people bring you down. Be YOU. Embrace yourself! God made you for a reason!
ReplyFirst of all, don't weigh yourself. It can do more harm than good.
Second of all, eat 3 meals a day. Try not to skip meals. Don't snack. Drink water only.
If you can't bring yourself to eat full meal at certain times, eat little and often. Try not to force yourself to overeat and to eat certain things.
Try some simple exercises too. Walking is a great way too free the mind and to do some exercise.
I know that this is the type of thing that everyone says and tbh I was tired of hearing it too but it works. I have to admit sometimes I still overeat and feel horrible about it the next day but I forgive myself for it. You're allowed to eat. You need to eat and drink to survive there's no harm in that.
If you ever need to talk I'm here. I believe you can get through this moment in your life and you will be able to eat and drink comfortably in your own skin.
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