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My Timed Entry on suicide

1 month ago · 9 · Stress, +4 · Explicit


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you know how when you talk about suicide or depression with someone etc. they always say things like "your worth it", "think of the people you'll hurt", " it won't solve anything"

"Imagine how your dad would feel".

I feel kinda bad about it but when i think about it more I almost hope that my dad thinks it's his fault.

ill think to go as far as he finds her little girl's dead lifeless body and it's all because she couldn't give her a fucking second to talk and explain that good grades aren't the cure for mental breakdowns!?

i love my dad, but i need to give up, he abuses me, i cant handle this anymore, please, someone help me.. i need advice, i just.. feel like a mistake, i wanna grab a knife and slit my neck open, watch the blood pour out and scream "I love you dad".... ill do it for him to be happy..

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  • theteen · 1 month ago

    I don't know if I've got here ontime to stop you but if I have, hear me out.

    Nothing your dad has done or said to you is your fault. He's hurt you and he's hurting you but it's not your fault. Your grades won't matter in 20 years but you will. You don't know what could happen in the future but maby you'll find something you want to do and youll be glad you never ended it.

    I know you feel like your not worth anything, I know it all feels so pointless and numb to live but if you give in now so you'll never have to see the worse days your guarenteed to miss the best ones.

    I'm here if you want to talk about anything, wether it's about this or you need a distraction. Please if you don't want to talk can you tell me your alive? I want you to be ok, I'm here for you.

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    • Quinn · 1 month ago

      Sure we can talk, and thank you, so much.

      Reply
  • rottostranotipo · 1 month ago

    i'm sure he was the happiest man that time you arrived in his life . . .

    how can a father trying to protect his daughters future abuses her . . ?

    your not just his daughter... your his life too. . . :)

    why would you give up without a fight . . .? stay calm . . . ask him if he got a time . . . then talk . .

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  • HONESTYISKEY · 1 month ago

    If you feel like your dad doesn’t care about you. Than you care about yourself. The best cafe is self care. And who cares about good grades when you leave school. You can be like “when I was in school a long time ago I had good grades” because who care yk what I mean. Make a goal. Have something you want to accomplish so you’ll have a reason to live beyond for your dad. Maybe work on urself in a spiritual level like religiously or just doing yoga to calm yourself. I hope you take in account that your a human and humans make mistakes so don’t feel haunted by them. Just know people out there want you to live and thrive. I’m one of them 👍

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  • Marcus_barry · 1 month ago

    Parents suck. my advice is fucking leave that hell hole of a house. pack your shit take the money and just walk out. If you think about it the situation too much then you won't leave but once you leave and you get in that bus/train/Uber/taxi all the stress will be gone. Go to a shelter home. Or rent an apartment. or be someone roommate once u get ur shit together and have enough money then leave that place and buy ur own house and stuff. wish u the best just saying this is what I did at 15. now im 18

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    • Quinn · 1 month ago

      im only 13, i dont really have anything

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      • Marcus_barry · 1 month ago

        then work hard to get things

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    • Quinn · 1 month ago

      im only 13, i dont really have anything

      Reply
  • vamp · 1 month ago

    I FEEL THE SAME WAY. but you shouldnt kill yourself. maybe just try to talk to him, if he doesnt let you then just scream at him what you want to tell him to make him understand you.

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