My Unsent Letter

Hi....

I know I keep saying that I'll stop talking but I can't. I still have so much left to say.

I'm so sorry. I never told you I was hurting. I never told you anything personal enough that you could hurt me. I never told you things that I should have and for that I ruined everything. I was (and still am) battling these demons that you can't see) and that's come back around and slapped you in the face, which isn't fair I'm sorry. You didn't deserve to be the punch. I told you one thing and I guess my fight or flight kicked in, so I screamed then I ran. I wish things could have been different, I would still take a bullet for you.

But you still hurt me too. You may not have physically cheated but you was just waiting for the opportunity to do so.

I know they say never to blame yourself but I hold myself accountable 100% I pushed more than I pulled.

The only thing I wished you would have done, not think you can fix everything. I tried to warn you and you stayed. Instead of leaving you tried to fight an unfair battle. But you still didn't leave. You just tried to seek solitude elsewhere.

I hope this can be my goodbye.

Forever.