Being a parent

Having a baby is quite literally the best thing in the world and the absolute worst at the same time.

I love my little boy more than anything, he brings me so much happiness and a real purpose to my life.

But I hate how isolating motherhood can be, how much a resent my partner because he just does whatever the hell he wants but I literally go to the toilet alone and he shouts to ask why I’m taking so long!

I hate my parents for being zero help, getting jealous of my friends how take their babies to their mums so they can get some sleep, I don’t have that my parents are no help at all. My mum loves telling everyone about her perfect grandchildren but never helped out with any of them (my nieces too).

I also live in constant fear that I’m going to be a bad parent like mine were, so worried about making mistakes. If my baby cries whilst I’m holding him but his dad takes him and he stops il think about it for hours.

I just wish I’d of been better prepared for the way motherhood has had me feel about myself!

My baby boy lights up a room honestly he’s truly the best little boy but I’m finding it tough being a mum in general and to be honest I would feel better if my partner just moved out at this point because he is no help at all and just creates more mess and gets angry when the baby won’t stop crying.

I just wanted to ramble alittle to be honest.

I love my son and my so grateful but wish I had support