Safe

On the phone, in the middle of the night, you told me in your alcohol soaked voice how wonderful I am and to "Be safe" and those words coming from you felt like a kiss on the forehead.

Sober you told me that you'd try to come out and see me if you could. Which is code for "No, I won't be doing that." I knew you would never make the effort. Because I'm not worth the effort. I haven't been for the last 3 years.

Now I don't know if I'm just running away from something wonderful but difficult or just finally making better choices. Trying to make the distance in my heart match the physical distance between us...Either way the distance makes me sad and it hurts.