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11 months ago · · Lonely,
why do we have to be in the military, moving across the country every damn time I finally get settled. Every 2-3 years I am completely uprooted, leaving behind all I’ve ever know for my dads stupid job. And I’ve tolerated it for thirteen years but I just can’t do it anymore. We’ve moved 5 times already, 5 times. And next year we might be moving again and I just can’t mentally do it again. I really honestly truly can’t. I’m shy and anxious, not the best at making friends so it’s hard enough. And I’m jealous that everyone around me gets to hang out with their friends since kindergarten while I always feel like an outsider. No matter how hard I try I’ll never really fit in. I’m always the weird new kid because every year I have to switch schools for this or that reason. Either one shuts down or another is crap or we switch to the very last grade at one.
I’m just so tired and done and jealous and sad and lonely and unhappy and overwhelmed and it’s already hard enough that I’m in eighth grade. I’m done I’m so damn done with this. And every time I try to bring it up with my parents all they do is tell me “I don’t have it SO hard” and that “kids are starving and homeless, be happy ur in a good home.” They’re great parents and I love them, don’t get me wrong, but they just don’t understand me. Nobody can.