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Baking, because it really is therapeutic.
I was depressed for years. I didn't know I was, until December 2020. Yet, even after knowing, I did nothing. If writing here in Novni for weeks is considered "doing" something, then I have been venting and writing my feelings here. Then, the following month, I both made the wrong and right decision. I tried to ch0ke myself to d3ath using my hands, because I believed only my hands had the right to k1ll me. Before I ran out of breath, my mind flashed an image of my young sister and my mother crying on my d3ath bed and it was the most painful thing I've imagined. From there, I abruptly folded my arms and cried on my bed until I fell asleep with a thought in my mind, "I will talk to someone. I won't die. I can cry everyday, but I will never dare do this again."
After feelings of depression subsided, thanks to my best friend and mother (and to myself, I owe my life too) I decided to let go of the ache through food. I love food even when I was young. So, I asked my mom if she could buy me the ingredients I need. She approved and that's when I started baking. Every after doing tasks at school and here at our home, I watch baking videos and plan my baking adventures for the week. I have made chocolate chip cookies, chocolate and vanilla cupcakes, deep fried donuts and a custard-filled tart. My first attempt on cookies and cupcakes were both a failure, but after many tries, I finally nailed it! The donut was rushed, because my sister said she's very hungry, LOL. And the tart was amazing on my first try!
Through baking, I learned discipline and patience. I figured along the way that these two are important in doing self-love and self-care. I bake for my love ones and that includes me.
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ReplyI wonder if you have made a cake in a microwave. I found the recipe for a simple cake and added two teaspoonfuls of cinnamon, pineapple pieces, raisins, and a crushed banana instead of an egg. It Takes 6 minutes to cook in the microwave. I iced it as well. Last time I made it I used mixed fruit instead of raisins but the raisins are best. You will need a microwave cake dish or use a bowl with a glass in the middle and put butter all around the inside of the bowl and around the glass. The cake doesn't cook in the middle so you pour the mixture around the glass.
ReplyI haven't even made a cake in an oven yet. LOL! And our microwave is broken :( But I think that cake you made tasted fruity and yummy! I happen to love fruits :D Thanks for sharing! Although if I were to make it, I wouldn't add cinnamon because it's my nose's greatest enemy xD
ReplyContinued: also put a teaspoon of olive oil in because cakes tend to dry out in the microwave.
ReplyGood for you! I had some similar thoughts and I got out of it by focusing a lot on a new ballet class. Even though I started late, my teacher says I show a lot of potential and just might be able to go pro if I worked enough. I feel like most people have one distraction or another. My friend's was cars, and a guy I met online's was drawing. If it works for you, keep going! :)
ReplyThanks! It's so nice to have someone relate to me. And I'm glad you are doing great in your ballet class! I wish the best for you and keep going too <3
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