Realization

Yesterday I was thinking why I had to come out to my sister and now I realize why. Ever since I came out to her I thought I came out to her willingly. But I soon realized that she forced me to come out. She decided because I didn't want to watch a movie with her and the rest of our siblings that she had to look through my search history. At the moment I didn't know what incognito mode was so she found all my tabs on what being transgender meant. I had those tabs because I felt like I had no one to turn to for answers. I felt happy that deep down that there was other people like me. I remember that next morning she called me to her room and began asking why I had these tabs open. She didn't allow me to leave her room until I gave her my answers. She just kept persisting that I had to explain to her. So eventually I told her. I just wished that I watched that dumb movie.