헷갈려 [I'm Confused]

Do I really need to suffer this much as some sort of investment for my future? Would you rather be tortured a lot of times, when you're not even sure if there is a future waiting for you? Why do people always tell you to study hard, work hard so you can have a better future, rather than telling you to enjoy your life?

Having a good future is nice, but have you ever thought that that future might not be waiting for you at all? Imagine losing your youth and investing it for something that doesn't even exist. Instead of enjoying your life and having fun with it, you use most of your time studying, preparing for the future. People are always so obsessed with the future that they forget to enjoy the simple life they currently have.

But then, you don't know when death comes for you. What if it's not future who's waiting for you, but death? There is this friend of mine. Just this week, her cousin, along with two of his friends, was shot dead, deep in the mountains. One of them was my age. Could've been in college, just like I am. Could've been ambitious, more than I am. But in just one night, he lost his life. Along with all his dreams for his future. Along with all the hope his family probably has for him. You can't avoid death. And that is a sad truth.

I'm so fed up with people saying, "it's okay to have a hard time right now, when you graduate, and have a job, you can have fun however you want." That could be motivational for most of you, but can you say the same for a dying person?

Writing this actually made me remember what my sister told me when we went to Baguio. She told me I'm lucky I could go to places like this at a young age. I should be appreciating it. I didn't fully understand what it meant, but now my understanding of it got better.

I'm not saying that investing for the future is a bad thing, of course, a good future is always nice. But then I don't think we should be spending all our youth stressing out. Don't forget to enjoy your life while you can. People don't regret things that they did, but things they never did.

Know how to enjoy your life while you're still young, while you still can. Do what you love. Say what you want to say. Sounds like a threat, but you don't know when your clock ends. A successful life is a death without regrets. Don't put too much suffering on yourself. To society is ugly, but the world is beautiful. Don't forget to enjoy the beauty of life itself.

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