Exploding head syndrome

I hear a loud bang, like a pile of dishes being thrown against the floor, I can't get my neck up it feels too heavy. The space is more open than my normal room but there's stuff and clutter right in front of me. My mom was going out the balcony but now she's disappeared. I look outside the window and somehow I realise there's a god and my own actions are sending me to hell. No one to blame, nothing to do. The view outside starts becoming black and I expect to meet my punisher... A devilish jesus face lingers in my mind and numbs me in fear as the room turns pitch black as well. I lie on my bed and I momentarily faint on it but I want to see what's happening outside the window. It feels like someone or something is about to come in from the corner. I try to get up again and my neck feels heavy again, my head is difficult to lift up, it hangs back as I try to stand, my neck bones and veins are popping out from the struggle. The bang sounds again and it feels like a slow drum sounding my death. The air is foggy and cloudy, cold and humid. I can't open my eyes and this time I'm standing with my hands up trying to make sense of my surroundings. My brain is scattered and jumps quickly from thought to thought. All feverish, asphyxiating and deeply, freakishly scary. In my brain suddenly I'm walking in some deep waters in a flooded place. Feels like indoors but it is more like a big porch. "You can't open this door it's too cold inside". A text appears under my thought just like a video game. And I immediately imagine myself freez to death. "How cold can a room be so that you're not able to enter even for a second?" It felt like the whole place I was currently at wanted to kill me except if I played the correct puzzles. Like corpse party. I hadn't played that game in at least five years but right there I had the exact same claustrophobic feeling. I go back to my dizzy reality and I'm fighting to find my senses before I faint. I want to look outside the black window one more time in a desperate attempt to maybe ask for forgiveness from the one I thought was doing this to me. The bang sounds again and I drop on the floor exhausted. I fall next to my bed with my back turned to the empty space and my head under the hanging blanket. Only one of my hands is still softly grabbing a table leg behind my back with all the strength I have left. I fear something's coming, I've started to notice the banging and expect to die when it sounds again... I grasp the table leg. I feel it with my almost numb fingers. I'm getting shivers from the fear, showering in cold sweat. My mom might find me, a monster might be coming, I realise this might be a dream but either way... I think this is it for me. I always said I'm not afraid of death. I don't think I'm lying. I stop fighting to open my eyes. I accept I'm going to die. I let go. The bang sounds one last time. I wake up. My head is ringing. I feel flushed. Dream felt like the scariest horror film ever. Also loud bangs in my head, new insomnia trick unlocked. Fk.