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2 months ago · · adults,
i never understood why so many people think it's fine to belittle others. Like, when I was younger, I was always so damn conscious about my self, what I said, how I looked. And by younger, I must've been around 9. People always asked me, didn't you EAt anything? Why are you so thin? Oohhh are you dietinggg to stay thinn? You look like a stick. And all these things, were from grownass adults. And I even though I didn't connect this back then, I'm pretty sure now that these had a hand in my very low self esteem of those years. I hated the way I looked, my legs, hands. I was even conscious of my elbows, and I tried to hide them as much as I could. Doesn't that feel too much for a kid in 4th grade? I've grown now, I know not to gaf about those people. But what should I do now, when I see the people, the people in my own house, start doing the same thing to my cousin? "You're so fat now... Don't eat so much" and on and on and on and on. JUST STOP. I tried talking to them.. at first they denied doing such a thing.. and then they told me that even though what they were saying was a jOkE aNd iS fUnnI itS nOt mY fAulT yOu dOnt hAve a seNse oF huMoUr sWeaTy, they said they won't. But they still continued. And today they told me I was intolerant of jokes and that I'm a snowflake who can't take anything and that this was all in fun when they were growing up. "thIs gEnerAtion, we can't even say anything without getting called oLD aNd discriminating. yoU with your fancy woRds lIke bOdy shAming, when back in my day it was just fun. We never called other kids by their names, but we called them things like CrooKed tEeTh and it was aaaaalll in fun. nOt like yOu with yoUr friEnds aNd your nickNamEs."
like, do you even *hear* yourself? just stop. Stop. YOU were the ones who told me to NOT cry because I had nothing to cry about. You were YELLING AND SCREAMING AT ME and I was just 11 and you told me I had NO REASON TO CRY BECAUSE DID I HIT YOU??? DOES IT HURT ANYWHERE? NO? THEN YOU SHOULD SHUT UP.
And you say you're the perfect parents. Sure, you don't pressure me to get marks and that because I've had straight A's since first grade. I am terrified of failing. I don't know where my life's going to end up. I hate this. And you compare me to that woman you hate, and don't pretend that it's in fun when you say "ill beat u to death if you act like s***cy" don't you dare. I hate you. But I have no choice, have I? blood. when will you learn, that blood is not a good enough reason to keep bad people in your life?