im just tired

im tired

im starting to not go to school which is not good cause if i continue - i could get kicked out and i want to go to uni so i cant let that happen

but im just tired and my brain, the voices in my head arent helping

i cant even think of a good enough excuse to why i keep avoiding school anymore

im tired?

im tired of waking up, overthinking , showering, doing my hair in the same hairstyle, concealing my eyebags so i dont look like a raccoon, overthinking, throat tightening, walking to school, socializing with people i dont like, overthinking, heart pounding, suffocating under my mask, prying my sleepy, heavy eyes open in every class, bruised fingers from writing, overthinking, eating the disgusting school lunches, "you shouldnt be eating" walking home, getting home to bruise my fingers even more while overthinking as the assignments keep piling on top of each other until i fall alseep wihtout eating dinner since

'youre fat, you dont need dinner" - 5 hours later

repeat

it doesnt sound like a lot and im not even in the adult world yet but im tired

my brain is killing me