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I get so paranoid to the point i think people will hear what I think is an 'unmanly' song and judge me. I question if this site really is anonymous. I have a voice that i hate and i think people think i'm gay because of it. I'm not, i'm attracted to women. I do love getting my ass licked and fingered by a woman. There's been a handful of people that have expressed their thoughts of questioning my sexuality. Things like, 'we should get him that shirt in pink' or 'i bet you watch lifetime movies.' I think about women a lot and fantasize about what i would do with them. It got to the point that i was questioning my own sexuality. I watched gay porn (less than a minute) and i did not like it at all. then i'm thinking am i gay for checking if i'm gay. I've done searches online to see if other straight men like to have their assess licked or penetrated and it turns out that there are a lot that do. I remember the comments that say 'if anything goes in your butt then you're gay'. i know that's not the case. When i see an attractive girl and i think about what i want to do with her and what i want her to do with me. i always think about her tongue in my ass and then she's on her knees sucking me and sticks a finger in my ass as i cum all over her face and in her mouth.
Lately i've been feeling apathetic and not wanting to do anything. i have a mountain of things to tackle and i think about them just going away.
I'm fucking up in life and i know i'm doing it and i can't stop. It's like i've become so afraid of screwing things up that i don't do anything and by not doing anything also screws things up.
Right know i'm sitting in a coffee shop and this very pretty woman entered. I try not to stare but i have to turn my head a little to see her and i don't want anyone to think i'm a creep or a perv. she has a pretty face, slim body, nice ass and showing cleavage. My fantasy would be that after she got her cup of whatever she stops behind me and whispers "I want to suck your cock and swallow your load." Of course this didn't happen and very unlikely will but that's what i fantasize about. She left with a cup in her hand and i'm still sitting here typing away.
I have so many things i want to say and i feel like i can't type fast enough to get them all out. I want to be and do so many things, i want to feel like i'm good enough. i want to not feel dumb, i want to feel confident and competent. I feel like i'm drifting on a raft and all i can do is observe everything and feel like i have no control or ability to change course.
I don't think letting this all out will make feel better. I'll still think about my voice whenever i talk to someone and how it sounds to them and if sound gay. That reminds me, i've recorded my voice a bunch of times and listen to it over and over and each time i think i don't sound gay. I don't know, maybe i blocked myself from listening to my voice accurately.
If you are reading this sentence then you already know how messed up my thoughts are. Do people actually read these things, i don't know. I wanted to push my boundary and post something online and see that nothing happens. In the back of my mind i keep thinking that everyone i know will somehow read this.
i have to back to doing nothing, peace.
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Hey, calm down. First off, I don't think there's a need to label people with their sexuality. Everybody has their preferences and nobody has the rights to judge you based on it. If you're not gay and you don't want people to call you that, tell them right in front of their faces. You have all the rights to talk back. And sexual fantasies differ from people to people and there's nothing wrong in having one. You can't label which is "ew" and which is "aw". So all I can tell you is that be confident about whatever you might be and don't give a fuck about what those idiot say. Have a great day, mate!
ReplyThank you for the advice but it's difficult for me to be confident, something i have to work on.
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