What are you looking for?
Faith in the future.
5 months ago · · Self love, · Explicit
This year is ending and I can't say it was the best I ever had. Lots of emotional hurting, mental distress, complicated relationships. My case is not the only one and never intend to be. Maybe you reading this letter will resonate.
I lost track of how many times I burst into tears from November to December. I miss the happiness I felt up to Nov 12th. Day where I learned the true intentions of the ones who talk to me, in a hard way.
It wasn't pretty and the scars are here. Not on my body. Those aren't visible and give you an alarm that something is not right.
I try to have faith in the future. Believe I will find better people to be with and spend proper quality time with.
And, about me? A makeover. Not on my looks, forgiveness for my 2021 version. Leave it to rest. Remember what I've done, so I can break the cycle.
I didn't treat myself properly. My bad habit of depreciative self-talk worsened the scenario, making it almost effortless to end where I've been: Feeling used, betrayed by everyone, abandoned.
It hurt me the most that's why I intend to quit.
Where's me being my BFF? Cheerleader?
Where am I saying: Yo, girl. It's on! You're the fucking boss in your life. You run it. Go get 'em Main Character vibes.
I hope this becomes frequent. Breaking my old habit streak. This way, I'm gonna go far.
And so can you.