Dear LOVER,

I know you never thought I d be writing to you, nor did I, but guess what I am and all you `ll read throughout the letter is regret, of realizing somethings a little too late. And I know your love for me has turned into some form of hate, and I know I am the reason for that as well but I wish to tell you that I am sorry. I am sorry for breaking you and breaking myself too because it was only when you went away that I realized how much I wanted you. And it was my mistake and all throughout I `ve been telling you it was yours and that you were stupid and illogical while all this time I` ve been the one being stone cold, heartless. I am sorry. And I want to come and talk to you and I can ,IA just did not realize when I became so egoistic and arrogant that I could not place my own happiness above it and I am sorry that hurt but I never meant to. I am sorry I could never realize how you understood me and respected my limits, all I could be about that was mad at you and you could still go out and wish me a happy birthday and I could not even give you a decent reply. How could I be so stupid .And I pass you in the corridor and I can see all the past in your eyes but I don`t think you care anymore. Even I am bound by ways you must understand but that did never give me the right to break you. And I can see your broken heart in your eyes. We had a chemistry, the whole of school said that ,you blushed on that and I -fie fie. And we still have it because I can still make out what you are wanting to say by just that look on your face and I wish you could too. And I know our eyes talk in that silence too but what if they are just misunderstanding each other. And I am sorry for every time you came to talk to me with all that hope and what a stupid girl am I ,could I not love I should have atleast respected you and I am sorry that all of apologies won`t ever reach you, I am sorry. it`s been 5 years, you knew as a kid, you knew my tantrums, you knew what I like ,you knew exactly what I d like to hear and you never wanted me to be like one of those girls but each time I wanted you to` just understand`. It was after 3 years but you still remembered that I could never say no to chocolates, you remembered my nickname and you every time I made a mistake you would come and say sorry like it was yours. And it WAS yours because you shouldn`t have loved such a self obsessed girl, you should not have been the only world in her world to care enough. But please just once again make that mistake I promise I `ll not let you down this time, I promise. I had kept you like a secret all along but you kept me like an oath. You kept me like a oath. I don`t think I `ll be able to let go of what we had because it was so precious that I still survive nights on the words you uttered almost 2 years ago, could we just talk again once, for once can I not see that pain in your eyes behind which I lie, please tell me you still think about me,still want me and still remember me the way you did, tell me i m all u want,even when I break ur heart.