It was the negative experience, being cheated on and disappointments from exes.

She had a chance with me if technology, toxic social media, and toxic influences weren't involved. Maybe 10 or 15 years ago she might a chance to be with me. Because I was open-minded before my toxic exes came into my life. She might have a chance with me in high school, middle school, or before joining the military.

Although, she loved me for my personality, life experiences, and being my true self. But, I can not love her or show the same or equal emotions back. She may know or does not know about exes or heartbreak stories.

In my point of view, she is a good potential partner and maybe settle down in the future. She shows her true and lovely personality, she is not part of the toxic group, she is not part of the influenced by toxic technology. However, at the present time that not going to happen. Because exes hurt me so bad. I developed trust issues and looking for other options. In addition, I travel to other counties from the military career and vacation as a civilian. I met other women who treated me so well. I decided not to go back to my own kind.

Now. She might read this or she may not? But, she'll never know about my sad past or the reason why I can not love her or show love to my own kind back in my own home country.

To her, I am sorry, I choose other women from different cultures and backgrounds over you, or never show interest. The little boy's soul with a pure heart has died inside of me. Due to my toxic exes and disappointment from falling in love.