Istg (long but id appreciate it if u read it)

My whole life Ive only rlly had one friend. I'll call her AR. We met in kindergarten and we've been best friends since. We're in highschool now. She's changed a little the past few years. She kind of acts like she's better than other people. She's very self obsorbed. It's not like she's trying to be rude or anything, she just.... is... does that make sense? I mean it's not on purpose.

I used to sit only with her at lunch but then one of her other friends (calling her KY) started sitting with us bc she didn't like the ppl she was originally sitting with. I don't like KY and I never have. She's so annoying It's unbelievable. And shes a judgemental rat too. Like I genuinely do not understand how someone could be as dumb and ignorant as this girl is.

Now that KY is sitting with us (she's been sitting with us for like 6 months or whatever now) AR basically only talks to her. Wtf. Everyone is going to say to just try to join in on the conversation but I can't because I'm not a part of it. They don't talk about anything that I can add to. Only whatever drama is going on with their little social circle that I'm not included in. Plus AR and KY sit on one side of the table and I'm on the other so it's not as easy to talk.

One time they were talking abt something someone posted on insta and they were pointing at someone and giggling and I asked what it was. AR said it was just an internet thing. Wtf does that mean. So I said "yeah what internet thing?" And she was like "well it's just something a guy posted." Like if you're not talking to me and not letting me in on the convo then why the fuck are we friends. Why am I sitting by you? That pissed me off so much.

Another thing that they'll do is be watching videos or tiktoks or snapchat stories or whatever on KY's phone with airpods in. 😐 If I was that rude I would literally kill myself.

I've gotten up and left the table once because they were pissing me off so much but the only difference between sitting with them and not sitting with them is that without them, I'm just pissed, bored AND alone.

AR has another friend (calling her DAK) that has the same lunch as us but sits at a different table. Lunch ends at 1:35 so at 1:30 we go and stand by the doors waiting for the bell to ring. DAK and 2 other girls (also friends w/AR) stand with us. Bitches. They all ignore me except for an occasional comment or something from AR. Today we were standing in a circle and one of the other girls walked and stood in front of me (pushing me out of the mfing circle) to talk to whoever else. Like bitch do you not fucking see me? My options were to either rip her scalp off her head (all this shit has been going on and getting progressively worse for like 2, almost 3 years) or leave. So I walked away.

AR has the audacity to follow me and be like "where are you goingggg 😖?" And I said "no ones talking to me so I left". And I told her I didn't like them and she said she knew that. Idk what to think about that response. I said I was going to just stand where I was and she said okay and left.

Also I didn't go to her bday this year because I knew I was going to essentially be ignored the whole time in favor of KY. She cried because I wasn't there. What do you think abt that because Idk.

ANOTHER THING is at homecoming when she asked me to go with her because she didn't have anyone to hang out with that wasn't bringing someone else. I never wanted to go in the first place but I did for her. FOR HER and she still fucking ignored me because she ended up getting a date. She just talked to him and his friends and I was standing around, following them like a puppy. I feel like the freaking guy she brought talked to me more than she did 😐 Sometimes she put in the effort to check and see if I was still there. That's all. I called my mom to pick me up early and left.

My school had a big football game a few months ago and the plan was for me to go with AR and another girl. Thing is, I paid $8 for a ticket to walk in on the wrong side of the stadium. I was told that they were sitting on that side. I called AR to asked where tf she was and she said they were on the other side. I didn't want to Pau another $8 so again, I left. The next day at lunch AR and KY were talking about how much fun it was. Thanks, I had fun too.

Overall Im fucking sick of AR and KY and everyone else I'm around. AR takes advantage of my friendship and my time and my efforts. Just like how she took advantage of her ex-boyfriend (her hoco date). He was so nice to her and treated her great and she took it for granted. Her parents spoil her so that's probably where that comes from. She gets everything she wants and whines and cries when she doesn't. It's like she's completely oblivious to everyone and everything that doesn't directly affect her. Like she doesn't realize that the people in her life also have their own lives. She thinks they all live to enhance hers.

The thing is, I don't thing she realizes what a cunt she's becoming. There are so many more things that I could say and instances I could talk about.