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What if I spoke my mind? Would they hate me or love me more? Who am I? I'm someone so different in my mind, but they still seam to only care about who I show to be.

I hate that person; the one that keeps laughing and talking so much all of the time. That isn't me, it is an insecure person that wants to be like everyone else wants her to be, but will never be; I'll never be her. I love myself, and want to discover and get to know myself better. And this other person; she doesn't love *her*. She shows no interest or passion as me.

And oh, I love her so much, she is so beautiful.

I have created this whole universe in my head, and this other person interprets it in the worst way possible.

Now, I will try to talk to her and show my true self.

I wish I knew more, about this enormous, infinite world. Maybe someday, just someday, I'll be able to give answers and stop making so many questions.

I honestly try to avoid you every time I see you near me, but even then, I still try to search for you every time I know you're there.

I feel so free writing this right now. I hope you see this and know how I'm feeling right now, as most of these feeling come from you.

(okay so i think this is very confusing. in some parts of this text i am talking about my inner self, in others, about the way i act. In others, about *her*, and in others, just about some thoughts i get :P. i hope its not that bad)=