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4 months ago · · masturbation, · Explicit
So , There is This Thing That's bothering me for so Long . I have been questionning Why for Years without getting proper answer.
I have been masturbating since I was 7 Years Old . I don't remember How it started or Why? Like How can someone so young Think of doing something sexual like This ? How have I got the Idea ? And I only discovered It was Masturbating until The age of 15 .
It was too late since I got addicted to it . It is Like drugs .. I do it more Than 30 Times a day if Im way too stressed and after it I grt severe headache and backpain .. It is NOT normal . I know .
The problem is not now , The problem is Why I started doing when I was 6 . WHY?
The Worst part , Im not sure about This But I have This not clear , Blurry Flashbacks That comes across my mind .. I was playing with my cousin , Who is older than me ,when I was 4 or 5 And We were close , Laughing And He told me That he Loves me and He is going to marry me ..
One day, ( still when Im young) I told my sister What my cousin told me about loving me and marrying me , She laugh about it and Told me I was Just imagining Things . But I was so sure .
Why I have been keeping all this in my mind? Im not someone who remember anything from the past , I only remember Traumatic events .
Im afraid The idea of starting masturbating started because I was being touched sexually when I was young .
I have no proof . I have some blurry memories That I can not trust 100% .
Now, Tell me , Is it normal That someone start masturbating at 6? Or It must be linked to something that might happened for exemple being sexually *** ?