not a new beginning.

Trying to be rational was hard for me. My decisions has always hurt one person or another. I believed what I need was a fresh beginning . believed that I had learnt everything about life from my past. I never thought my lessons from past would also have a different perspective. never spend a second to think about it differently.

Days went by with my fresh beginning. but today when I'm writing this , it has caught up my moment to think.

Confused,

but can definitely say that I do regret being the person I was.

no apology would justify it.

I doubt if even redemption exist.

the regret catching up with me every now and then made me doubt it.

I've loved and been loved.

yet there is a moment every now and then that makes me feel that I can't be loved.

I hope this passes , but I know it won't

a weight to be carried for the rest of my life

hopefully i'll learn how to live with it.

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Wish I had known better// sorry for hurting.

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