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"I'm so OCD" - She laughs and tidies her table. Everything lined up.
But that is not OCD.
Compulsion
1,2,3, 1,2,3 1,2,3...
Say I love you or your mom's cancer will come back,
Socks must match.
No holes. Idiot.
Do you still envy me?
1,2,3 1,2,3 1,2....1,2,1,2,1,Fuck!
just tap the toothbrush properly.
1,2,3
Stupid
Stoopid, stu-pid, stouped
Stupid
Intrusive thoughts, reminders. Memories
Silence them with ritual.
over and over and over again.
Do you still envy me?
Is everything on the table? yes. close the door.
open, close
open, close
open close
There will be a fire - DO IT RIGHT! Worthless.
Piece of shit.
Body won't stop. No control.
Over and over and over again
Do you still envy me ?
"But this is what you deserve"
Do you still envy me?
Walking. Step,Tap. Step, Tap. Step, Tap
Tap Tap Tap .
1,2,3 1,2,3 1,2,3
Each finger, in succession
It hurts. They start to get stiff. It's been 55 minutes.
"Keep going".
No!
Tap, tap, tap
Do you still envy me?
Late. Time doesn't wait for matching socks.
Feet move. One in front of the other.
1,2,3 1,2,3 1,2,3...
Late, Lay-ayte. Layete. Lait. Late. Late.
Time to leave.
2 minutes.
1 minute.
59,58,57
Do not take a step.
47,46,45
Is everything on the table? Fuck.
Up the stairs. Open door, check.
22,21,20
Close, open
close, open,
17, 16, 15
close...Open. Fuck.
Go inside. close door.
Open,close
open,close
open, close
Out of time.
Do you still envy me?
Throat closing, eyes swelling, panic.
Everything is hazy, room spinning , voices fading.
Heart beats faster, Run!
How do you run from yourself?
Do you still envy me?
Hide!
It's safe here. Safe from what?
"Me". Who?
"You! 1 2 3, Do it right. 1 2 3, 1 2 3 1 2.."
Stop!
On the floor, closed in. Grabbing my ears.
If i can't hear them then I won't
obsess over what they say.
Breathe, C'mon breathe. In and out, in and out. Fuck
It's not working.
hyperventilate.
They think you are crazy
Do you still envy me?
Head hits the wall.
over and over and over again
1,2,3 1,2,3 1,2,3...
Make it stop please.
Stop!
Tears falling
1 hit, 2 hit, 3...
Do you still envy me?
Laying on the floor. It's over.
It's quiet.
breathe in. 1
Breathe out. 2
Breathe in. 1
Breathe out. 2
It stopped.
Eyes Close...
...tap, tap tap
TAP!
Shhhhh. I'm still here.
"So am I".
"I'm so OCD" - I see her laugh, she cleans her table.
If you knew OCD, you would not envy me.
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