i need to talk to someone

me and him didnt break up - at least i think, we didnt have that whole break up talk. but we knew that day was going to come. "this is our last day together" he said. we still talked the whole day until midnight, was still like a loving couple. then the next morning (today) he went ghost. like as he said "after my bday i'll cut off everyone". i miss him so much, my hearts hurting. my whole body's aching. i love and respect that he's putting himself first, but he didnt have to cut me off too. he showed how much i was to him and showed so much affection and love then just cuts me off along w the others. i'm his girlfriend? or was. anyways i shouldn't be too hurt about this since we both knew it was gonna eventually come. i miss him so much. i still love him loads. i wish i told him everything last night before it all ended.