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1 month ago · · Stress,
im here alone in a room again. Wishing how life could be different. I didnt have a difficult life to begin with. But something ruined it, and im the one stirring up my miserable life. I wish i am happy. i dont have to be happy all the time but once, i wanna be happy without faking it once. i hate the fact that im so weak. I hate the fact that i care. I hate the fact that i let my heart takes over my mind. I hate myself, is all i can think right now. Long time ago a friend of mine once told me ‘how are u suppose to love others when u cant love yourself’ i, back then, was so sure she was wrong. but now ive changed my mind. she was right. she was, always. crying wouldn’t help solved my problems, but at least theres one thing that is real, my body is not lying. but my heart does, it always does. i wish i could turn back time. i wish could love again. but seems like nobody heard my wishes.