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I feel like my life is crashing down around me but at least my bf still loves me (Tw sh)
1 year ago · 4 · Stress, +10
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I'm going to make this post short because If I spend too much time on it I'll cry. My boyfriend found out that I'm self harming. He walked in on me after I had done it and he looked shocked and ended up crying and he was trying to get me to wash the cuts. Seeing him cry made me feel so bad and he just wanted to take care of me and make sure my cuts were clean and that I was okay and I felt so guilty for making him worry. He was being so gentle. This was the first time I've felt anything in a long time. I've never ever ever seen him cry before so that makes it worse. He was crying because of me. He sat down with me on the bathroom floor and held me and cried. He said I was the only good thing in his life. I feel so bad I want to sh again but I can't because every time I hurt myself I hurt him too and I never want to hurt him. I love him too much. I want to go tell him right now how much I love him but then he'll probably think I'm doing it because I'm going to kill myself.
I love him sooooo much.
I love his laugh, his smile, his hair, his voice, how he hugs me, how he always makes sure I've eaten enough, and the way he always knows how to cheer me up. I literally love everything about him and nothing could ever change that. This is scary. There's too much going on in my head now. I just want a break.
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your boyfriend is an angel, keep him close and do not hurt him please
ReplyYou have a loving boyfriend so don't let him go.
Every time I look at the TV in the last few days there is a man or a young guy crying and no girls or women crying. Men seem to be becoming more emotional and maybe they are turning into women while women are being more like men.
ReplyYour boyfriend sounds like a wonderful person. It's great that you have somebody like him. I hope you're feeling better now. I recommend experimenting with alternative activities from sh, like walking outside when you feel the reflex of grabbing something dangerous, writing your feelings down (I do this and it helps, but it really depends person-to-person on its effectiveness), or cutting into paper or other materials instead, etc.
As an overthinker who is currently going through a scary period too, I feel you. My mind is annoyingly active all the time and there are instances when I wish I could turn it off for thirty minutes. That's why I write to get my thoughts out. If you're not into writing, maybe other activities can help redirect that energy elsewhere, like sports, board games, thinking games... anything that piques your interest. You can even do some of such activities with your boyfriend if you want to?
Treat yourself when you're going through a tough time. Get your favorite scoop of ice cream. Go see a movie. Revisit a novel/movie/play, etc. By yourself, with friends, bf, family... Regardless, you deserve care, love and goodness.
Wishing you the best for everything! :)
ReplyI hope YOU get the help you need, if that’s alone or with him by your side.
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