Trickling Away Elementary

I met you in after school program, and you were new. We weren't close, but we considered each others BFFS, until the end. We would climb in the rock climb everyday. Until you met more people, particularly a person who I knew. Ever since, you would play volleyball with them, and I never minded much anyway. But little did I know, the valve was already shut since then. The day would come that you would fade away, no matter how much I brushed it away. Then it came. All this time, you have trickled away from my palm, evaporating onto the ground below me. Still, as I held on to the very last drops of water, I asked before it was all gone for good, "Are we still friends?" You answered yes, as you then walked away with your new friends. You were nice, but you lied. You never intended, but it still hurt that it was all suddenly gone.

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Then, when we finally shared classes, I saw you again. But this time, with one of your friends: that girl, who I knew. You started talking to me, and we had fun. I began to saw hope, as it seems the water has once again run. Until, the girl I knew started to get jealous. I felt bad for her, but I was hesitant. I was too shy. I never meant to make her so distant. Though I admit, I wanted to show her what I felt about the things with which I dealt. And that came with a price. You were angry at me. "You just wanted to hang out with me and shut her off" or "You don't like her and only me, how could you?" And with that, the valve has shut off for good. Though, a new one has opened, but no more caught by my palms. I was hurt, this time the pain is pouring from my eyes. I never intended to ostracize. How could you, after all I've been through, blame me, and not the others too? Those who ostracized and criticized me?

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At the same time, I got a bad test score back. Thus, you thought I was crying because of just that. I wish I could've, beyond the blinding tears and distorting fluid in my throat, face you and yell the truth: "HOW COULD YOU? I NEVER MEANT TO SHUT ANYONE OFF! BUT AT LEAST SOMEONE NOW KNOWS HOW IT FEELS TO BE ME!".

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Though, all of this, I realized and knew, that she was nice, and never knew the truth. She was innocent, but still distant. She was nice, but she lied. But all of this unknowingly. It wasn't her fault. She is simply mistaken. Though, it still hurt me she never knew, as I was the one this was all happening too. You would feel it too, if you were in my shoes, wouldn't you? At least the girl the knew KNEW. It wouldn't be if I could've told her how I felt about it, but at the time I was shy. Still, I shouldn't regret, now I can learn to be better and best.. Better friends, etc.