My journey of losing weight

One of the major problem in my life is my obsession with my weight.

So, It started when I was 11 or 12, when people started commenting about my weight. I was not THAT fat, I was overweight based on their standards. Do you believe that a Kid had to worry about losing weight at such a young age? THAT WAS ME. I started starving myself, hating my body, not liking any clothes on me and I stopped going out because I was ashamed of my body. Then, I started to work out at the age of 14 at home by doing some exercises. In summer when everyone was having fun, I put myself Into diet and working for 20 hours a day. Yes, 20 Hours, I would cry in silence while doing it. Sometimes, I gave up and I eat whatever I want But Then When my obsession of losing weight wakes up again, I would punish myself by working out even more and starving myself even more.

When I eat, I would feel guilty and not enjoying anything, I would eat and put all the blame on myself.

You can't imagine how mentally hard it was for me to deal with all that shift at such young age without anyone's support. Not even my own family was aware of what I was going through.

At the end, I lost weight and now I'm being praised for having The perfect body But At what cost ??

Now, I'm 26 and I'm not what I used to be. Somehow Free from that obsession. But, That little kid of me sometimes wake up in me so I find myself suffering all over again. But, I'm sure I will find away to manage it and make myself free from worrying about weight.

To all those who are suffering with losing weight, Please hang on and be strong. Don't push yourself too hard. Your mental health is more Important than anything else.

And Those who always throw useless comments about someone's else weight, Remember that some people's comments cost me more than 10 years of mental struggles.

Everyone stay Happy 😊