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I thought he was a great man. One of the best I had ever known. He taught me about respect, kindness, generosity, integrity... he taught me right from wrong. He was a role model in every sense of the word and I looked up to and admired him unendingly.
Now I find out he's not who I thought he was. He's done some very bad things. He's not a good person. He's someone I need to stay away from. And I'm devastated. This is worse than grief because not only have I lost one of the greatest men I ever knew, but I've learned that he was never even real to begin with. I feel like I've been played for a fool. How did I not know earlier? Maybe I'm not such a good judge of character after all. I really thought the world of him. He taught me so much good stuff. Many of the best parts of me come from him. That's hard to accept now, knowing what he is. How can someone so bad have given me something so good? He cared so much. Or did he? I don't know what to believe anymore. It's making me question the other people whom I deeply love and trust now. Are they who I think they are? Can I really trust them? I would have trusted him with my life. I throw my loyalty so fiercely behind the people I love, and this is what I get in return. I don't know what to think anymore. I'm so tired. And so deeply sad.
Crying for the life mentor I've lost, whom it turns out I never really had.
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Look up the phrase, cognitive dissonance. That's what you've got.
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