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For the past months, days, or even years, I have tried so hard to change the way I am, because I feel like maybe I can finally be happy and blend with everybody else. Being so understanding and able to handle the emotions of others is a curse, it's draining my soul. I have tried a lot of things to improve myself so that I won't feel failure and be disappointed in myself. I just can't help sometimes to think, why do people are mean to someone who trying to be so kind to them? I don't like changing how I treat others because that's not who I am and I hate that. However, I feel like I don't have a choice. It's like being born in this world, I just can't be the way I am, truly. I need to change what I like to be for people to stop abusing me, manipulating me, and treating me bad. I can't be the person that I truly wanted to be. Everybody and every day, people just keep testing the person that I am. I truly don't know what to do now. I don't wanna give an f to people anymore and sometimes I just can't help but care so much for them...
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Consider this.
Family members, friends, neighbors, and teachers began labeling us starting at an early age. This continues to this day and along the way we accept and adopt some of these descriptions – I am pretty, ugly, fat, skinny, clumsy, athletic, smart, stupid, rude, sensitive, perceptive, naive, sad, serious, cautious, reckless, emotional, etc... We began seeing ourselves as this defined limited character (a separate self) and our thoughts and behaviors are consistent with this idea. Our ‘separate self’ character feels incomplete and imperfect and wants to get what is missing while getting rid of problem areas.
When the unwanted happens to us or the preferred does not and every time our effort to fix ourselves fail, we suffer. It comes in the form of agitation, irritation, boredom, disappointment, regret, jealousy, anxiety, depression, fear, loneliness, anger, grief, pain, or some other unwelcomed feeling or sensation.
Each of us are self-aware to an extent but when this knowledge is not clear, our true nature is hidden. A close look reveals that the most common element found in every one of my experiences is my presence – ‘I am there’. When I am sad, I am present there. When I am happy, I am present there. When I am scared, I am present there. When I am in love, I am present there. When I am angry, I am present there. I AM the always present AWARENESS that has no shape, size, age, race, gender, weaknesses, needs, or demands. As undefinable unlimited AWARENESS, I can’t be harmed and resist nothing.
The dance of creation is all of GOD’s creatures just experiencing each other and surrounding things. Animals do what they must and then enjoy their down time moments or sleep. After handling our obligations, instead of enjoying ourselves, we usually try to make our current situation different / better than it is. We attempt to acquire and secure preferred objects, circumstances, wealth, activities, and / or relationships expecting them to deliver lasting peace, love, and happiness. Any satisfaction that results from these efforts is only temporary. I finally realize that these coveted feelings are not earned, produced, provided, achieved, or possessed. Peace, love, and happiness have always been and will always be our essential nature. They shine through my being and energize my actions now that I see clearly.
Look inside, not outside, to change how you experience the world.
ReplyStop being understanding and handling the emotions of others because you aren't getting anything in return and this becomes tiring. This is especially bad for you to do this when you receive abuse, manipulation, and being treated bad. People are horrible nowadays.
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