My Unsent Letter

My dearest A,

I know I shouldn't constantly be thinking of you repeatedly. But I can't stop fantasizing over the late-night conversations. Am I selfish? The one thing I ask is that you talk to me a few times a day. Though I never say that to you, you get the idea. When we talk about us, our life together, it makes me feel happy, you make me feel loved. You told me you loved me. Why doesn't it feel like you love me? I'm about to take the next bus down to MT and just talk to you. Because you know I don't like being ignored and you've talked to other people after the 3 times I've texted you. I can't help but feel like something happened. I know you love me, we have a whole date planned where it's just you and me, and our lips sealed together. Did something bad happen to my A? Why were you so mad at everyone today? I hope you know I love you too. I've always have.

-love,

J